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update #2 since ive been home...
since the last time ive written i have...

• gone to the ben harper concert....was clocked in the head with a drum stick, which i proceeded not to get, but emily did...nice fighting hun.
• went to the dave concert and spent 13 hours at wonderful alpine valley with everyone...good times :)
• went to the taste of chicago to see some free music...moby, stereophonics, john hyatt...
• visited macko in the city
• went to connecticut with maggie to visit alex...cant wait to be their roommate in a month
• celebrated my 19th birthday
• worked. a lot.
  
• read a few books. i highly recommend james patterson. addicting.
• seen about 1000 movies for free, thanks to the public library
• celebrated my brothers engagment!

• the david gray concert
• my parents 30th anniversary! thats so many years
• u of i?
  

Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: dream on. aerosmith

so i suck at journaling...i can never keep up.

eh. theres nothing interesting in my life right now. work in the morning, hang out with kait and em in the evening...maybe see other people too. its very relaxing. cant complain.

so ive watched way too many chick flick/love stories in the past couple of days...and of course all of the males are gorgeous...depressing.

so i want to live in oregon. yeah thats right, oregon. its gorgeous, and relaxing, and gorgeous.  i want to go here.
yeah that would be nice. mm oregon.

im off to the movies. tata

Current Mood: content
Current Music: move on ~jet

today is perfect. gorgeous.

so my mother called me this morning and asked if i could take a break from my studies and go downtown to get a book autographed by goldie hawn. so i did and it is the best mothers day gift ever. goldie called me sweetheart! :) so then after meeting her, me alex and maggie we walking down state street and saw a film set for a new will ferrel movie...didnt see him, but they told us he was starring. so that was cool. and theni took a 2 hr nap by lake michigan...it is such a gorgeous blue and the breeze is so nice. i am in such a good mood. ilove this city!

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: watching friends

FIRST:
First job: HOSTESS
First screen name: SMILEY86..OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT
First piercing/tattoo: BOTTOM HOLES IN MY EARS
First credit card: HAHA OLDNAVY/GAP/BANANA REPUBLIC...I DID I SO I COULD GET AN EXTRA 10% OFF THAT DAY.
First true love: AT ABOUT 16 YRS OLD
First enemy: MY FIRST GRADE TEACHER AT MY OLD HOUSE. THAT BITCH.
First big trip: CAMPING IN SOUTH DAKOTA
First concert: B-96 SUMMER BASH 1994 OR 95
First musician you remember hearing in your house: ITHINK RAFFI

LASTS
Last big car ride: DRIVE TO AND FORM AUGUSTANA...OR DRIVING AROUND FOR THE HELL OF IT OVER EASTER BREAK
Last kiss: HA! SOME RANDOM KID. I AM NOT SLUTTY. I REMEMBER HIS NAME. BRANDON
Last library book checked out: HMMM I CANT TELL YA
Last movie seen: SPANGLISH
Last food consumed: QUESADILLLLLLLAS
Last phone call: MAGGIE VIA ALEX'S NEXTEL
Last CD played: I DONT PLAY CDS..ITUNES..AND ITS CURRENTLY STEPHEN KELLOGG
Last annoyance: ROOMING SHIT. BAH!
Last soda drank: MM I HAD POP, AND IT WAS COCA-COLA
Last ice cream eaten: THE SOFT SERVE INT HE CAFE.
Last time scolded: UM...I DUNNO. IM JUST AN ANGEL:)
Last website visited: FACEBOOK. WHAT ELSE

*I*
I AM: CONFUSED WITH MYSELF
I WANT: WHAT I CANT HAVE
I HAVE: THE CHILLS
I WISH: I DIDNT HAVE TO WRITE THIS DAMN PAPER
I HATE: EXAMS AND CLEANING THE DISHES
I FEAR: NEVER GETTING MARRIED
I HEAR: TRAFFIC. WOOT CHICAGO
I WONDER: IF YOU KEEP ME IN YOUR THOUGHTS
I REGRET: HA! DONT GET ME STARTED

I LOVE: YOU
I ACHE: MY BACK
I ALWAYS: 2ND GUESS MYSELF
I AM NOT: SURE WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFEEEEE
I DANCE: WHEN THERES GOOD DANCE MUSIC...OR TO JUMP ON IT, OR BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY, OR WHEN IM DRUNK
I SING: WITH KAIT IN THE CAR(haha kait, holiday in spain just came on itunes...), ORWITH ALEX AND SAMPY AND MAGGIE, OR WHEN IM BY MYSELF
I CRY: WHEN I THINK ABOUT STUFF TOO MUCH
I AM NOT ALWAYS: HAPPY
I WRITE: NOTES TO MAGGIE DURING HINDUISM.
I WIN: NEVER! IM SUCH A LOSER
I LOSE: EVERY TIME I DONT WIN...WHICH IS A LOT
I CONFUSE: MYSELF! AND OTHERS!
I NEED: A KAIT JUMPY HUG, OR AN EMILY HUG
I SHOULD: NOT KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF

YES or NO:
YOU KEEP A DIARY: YES, A JOURNAL ACTUALLY. I WRITE IN IT RARELY
YOU LIKE TO COOK: YES. I AM GOING TO COOK A LOT NEXT YEAR
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: NOPE. IVE TOLD EVERY SECRET TO AT LEAST ONE PERSON

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: HA. WHEN DO I NOT. MORE OR LESS INFATUATIONS
WANT TO GET MARRIED: YES
GET MOTION SICKNESS: WHEN I READ IN CARS/BUSSES
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: EH, RANDOMLY
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: YES ACTUALLY, A LOT LATELY
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: YES! HAAH BUT NOT SO MUCH WHEN I GET CAUGHT IN THEM ON THE WAY TO THE LIBRARY THEN I HAVE TO SIT IN THE AIR CONDITIONING IN SOAKING WET CLOTHING.

CURRENTS:
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: BLONDE/LIGHT BROWN
EYE COLOR: BLUEEEE
BIRTHPLACE: HM WASNT AWARE THAT THIS ANSWER COULD POSSIBLY CHANGE.....NORRIDGE, IL

FAVORITES
NUMBER: 8
COLOR: ITS BEEN GREEN RECENTLY
DAY: FRI...NO CLASS...SLEEP IN, AND GO OUT!
MONTH: JULY..MY BDAY AND 4TH OF JULY!
SONG(S): CURRENTLY, BEST OF WHATS AROUND, DMB. OR I FEEL HOME, OAR
SEASON: EARLY FALL
DRINK: ORANGE JUICE

PREFERENCES
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: MAKE...THEN CUDDLE
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: HOT CHOCOLATE...HAHA EM, PEPPERMINT BARK...OR HOPPED UP ON THE Q..."IM NOT HOPPED UP, MY BUGGARS ARE JUST CHOCOLATEY"
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: DARK.
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: CHOCOLATE

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? YES....THE FRIENDS EPISODE WHERE ROSS AND RACHEL BREAK UP...DAMN. GETS ME AND THE GIRLS EVERYTIME
HELPED SOMEONE? YES...I THINK...YES I DID
BOUGHT SOMETHING? LUNCH...
GOTTEN SICK? NOPE.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? NOPE
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? NOPE
SAID 'I LOVE YOU'?: YES!
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: NOT IN THE LAST 24 HRS
TALKED TO AN EX?: EVERYDAY
KISSED AN EX?:
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: YES
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: YES, ALL THE TIME. I LOV EUM
MISSED SOMEONE? DEFINITELY
HUGGED SOMEONE? YES, AFTER I MADE FUN OF ALEX'S BIG BOOBS.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? NOPE

WOULD YOU EVER:
1. Eat a bug?: EW
2. Bungee jump?: TERRIFIED OF HEIGHTS
3. Kill someone?: IN SELF DEFENSE FROM LIKE A NASTY RAPIST
4. Parachute from a plane? IF I WAS ON MY WAY TO MY VACATION SPOT AND WE HIT TURBULANCE AND WE WERE PLUMMETING TOWARDS THE GROUND. THEN ID CONSIDER IT
5. Walk on hot coals? NOPE OUCH
6. Go out with someone for their looks? YEAH, AND IF I DONT LIKE THEIR PERSONALITY AFTER THE DATE...THEN ITS OVER. HAHA I LAUGH THOUGH, LIKE ID EVERY GET THE CHANCE TO DATE AND DUMP A GORGEOUS GUY.
7. Be a vegetarian? HELLLLLLS NO
8. Wear plaid with stripes? EW FASHION NO-NO
9. IM a stranger? I DONT SEE A POINT
10. Sing Karaoke? HAHA YESSSSSS
11. Get drunk off your Ass? HAHAH YES, EVEN AFTER THE OTHER WEEKEND, I DEFINITELY WOULD
12. Shoplift? NOPE
13. Run a red light? YES, BUT ONLY BC I HATE HATE HATE MISSING THE GREEN ARROW
14. Star in a porn video? EWWWW NO
15. Dye your hair blue? FOR A GOOD AMOUNT OF MONEY...ID COLOR IT WITH A WASHABLE MARKER
16. Be on Survivor? HAHA YES!
17. Wear makeup in public?: WOW...THATD BE GOING OUT ON A LIMB THERE...BUT I THINK I COULD MANAGE
18. Not wear makeup in public? YEAH.
19. Cheat on a test? I CHEATED ON A QUIZ TODAY. SHOOT ME.
20. Make someone cry? NOT INTENTIONALLY
21. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? NOPE
22. Stay up all night? HAHA NOT DURING FINALS WEEK...THAT WAS BAD

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: best of whats around dmb

my hallway is a warzone. me and alex against some girls on our floor, colleen, raechel, susie (tho my roommate is helping them access my room, so shes going down). its all fun in games, and starting to consume all of my free time. it began when alex and i tackled susie and colleen in the hallway a few days ago, then through water balloons (ziplock bags of water) at they from 4 stories up, then tackled them again when they came to find us haha. so they stole my jude law poster yesterday and alex's fish. so we stole 179 school newspapers and crumpled up every sheet and put then into 23 garbage bags. then we filled their bathroom with all the paper. it was glorious. we won yesterday. but apparently they have a plan for us today, frankly, not afraid. weve got a few things in our heads about what to do next.

so thats that.

ive decided to do advertising and public relations and then minor in something like marketing. im excited. lets hope it all works out.

so i am officially complete with my freshman year of college in 19 days...wow. where did all the time go? im excited tho. i miss my kait! and my emily! in only a few months kait will be heading off to europe...that bitch. thats my jealousy speaking. you really arent a bitch.

alright my thoughts are worthless. ill spare you. bye

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: best of whats around dmb

hey...i havent posted in forever. it may be due to the fact that my computer had cancer..aka viruses and such. its getting a little bit better though. thank god. im lost without my computer. i know, sad to say, but its true.

so last friday night i went to see bob dylan at the auditorium theater. it was awesome. poor bob is so old he dropped his harmonica...but its ok, he picked it up and played amazingly. go bob. and his opener..amos lee! if you havent ever listened to him, u should. amazing voice. and i met him after his set...not the nicest man..tho he was was probably strung out...hardcore bloodshot eyes. good job amos.

so i just dont know what to do with myself. i am changing my major from film to either advertising and public relations, or forensic science. i know..most random choices ever. but all interests to me. the film program is just not for me here. too many things that are just turning me away from it. i really dont know what the new major should be tho, so if you have a vote for one of the two, let me know. haha we'll make it a poll.

lately whether good things or bad things happen to me, i just stay in a relatively good mood. thast good right? yeah, well i thought so until one day i heard a song that made me breakdown and cry. dont u hate it how just one thing can come into your path...and everything changes for that moment...yeah. that. sometimes it's a good thing. and it was the other day. i hate it how regrets just jump up and bite you int he ass sometimes.

well im off to 2 1/2 hrs of hinduism. lets pray i make it out alive.

Current Mood: haha lemon or lime?
Current Music: stephen kellogg ~such a way

hey, so when i was chilling with ema nd amie tonight i realized it had been awhile since i updated my journal. so here i am. updating.

im back in crystal lake for my spring break...havent done much other than hang out with friends and work. i work 6 nights this week. booooo. oh well, its money!

so our mens volleyball team at loyola beat the number one ranked team in the nation....hell fuckin yes! this means that march 17th is st pattys (drinky drinky), march 18th is a home game (drinky drinky and go to the game), and march 19th is another home game (drinky drinky again) i cant wait for that weekend! i lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvve going to the volleyball games...yes, i know, mens volleyball...but our basketball team sucks, so what are u gonna do besides support mens volleyball!

so i started a diet. dont give me the "if ur on a diet because u think youre fat, ur not...you could drink 2% milk if you wanted to" thing (hehe) im not doing this bc i think im fat...i am doing it to feel better about myself...and so far its working, and i have a lot more energy and i dont feel gross. also, its been 3 days and i already lost 3 lbs. hell yes. i am awesome at this diet (and i cheat at it too....)

alright, i really dont have anything else to say, so instead of blabbering on, i will save u the trouble and end my post.

the end.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: mason jennings ~"ballad for my one true love"

omg. i love listening to cat fights on the street outside my window at late hours of the night. so heres how cool loyola is. or rogers park i should say. lets count the crimes int he past few weeks:

• 3 murders on winthrop...oh wait...yeah thats right down my street.
• somebody set the jes res (where the priests live) on fire...going to hell? i think so
  
• a 50 yr old woman jumped in front of the el at the loyola stop...i know someone who say the lady jump
• the elevator at rockhurst apartments snapped and dismembered someone...WAS the apartments of choice for next year, now not so sure.

Current Mood: creeeepy
Current Music: best of whats around dmb

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most guys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right guy to come along - the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: dmb #41

sooooooooooo. its raining outside. glorious.

last night i went to the bar, also glorious. i need to get my own id, bc the one i used was passed back like 63541832 times, no like 3 times. i love p-co (the bar). they dont care. $1 bud lights.....glorious. $2 rum and cokes....glorious. being hit on by some punk scottish kid like 79243 times, not so glorious. tahnx to everyone who kept him away from me.

wow i need sleep. 4 hrs just doesnt cut it.

so we met the girl at the bar that works at the tanning place, and she said that shed get alex in (bc u need a state id to go tanning, i know stupid. but alex lost her license so she couldnt go). so im going tanning again! woo woo. cancer here i come.

ok time to get reallllllll food.

hehe the drunk lemon is wearing an eye patch

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: iron and wine such great heights

wow. i should post more.

and so concludes the 3rd week back at school.
highs= club run, parties, friends, oc addictions, 4 day weekends(thats right, i only have class tuesday wed
thurs), decided im going to study abroad in ireland w/ alex, new job "student ambassador" aka tour guide, alex sampy and magggie bought me 2 fishes that are now kept in my parrot bay bottle (dont worry, i cleaned it out...though i was interested in seeing drunk fish)

lows= the morning after stories/pictures(i refuse to look at the ones from last night), a good friend is transfering next year, regrets,my film prof is a tool, wow not too many bad things.

so i just had a 17 min convo with my mother about the party i was at last night at northwestern. not a bad one, she was joking around..."how much did u drink?...good thats not too much...cute boys?..." oh mom, u are too cute.

shley, here my list of 10 things ive realized about myself:
1) i have a hard time getting over things
2) i keep things bottled up too much
3) i have issues with members of the opposite sex
4) i get embaressed easily..though im working on that...i need to accept that i am stupid sometimes and i deserve the mockery.
5) i dont know what id do without my best friend. seriously.

yeah ill work ont he other 5 later.

Current Mood: sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
Current Music: garden state soundtrack

confusion has overwhelmed me

i hate not knowing where i stand in situations

boo

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: damien rice

so i went to borders today and purchased RUNNING WITH SCISSORS bc shley got it and i read the back and it sounded interesting. and it was! i was a caribou for a bit today and read 85 pages. u will enjoy it shley.

well im off to bedsy. im tired. goodnight

so i went downtown with alex to buy her mom an ornament for xmas. well as we were leaving the nordstrom mall on muchigan ave, i saw a familiar face...was it him? yes it was, none other that the fabulous JOHN MAYER. as we walked by him slowly i gave him that look u give someone when ur trying to figure out if youknow them....and he gave me the, Ah! u figured out it was me! look back. so i stop and looked at alex(shes the most hardcore john mayer fan i know) and say, hey, i think i just saw john mayer...so what do we do, turn around and run after him. we ran for 2 blocks and couldnt find him. he was wearing a black coat.....and so was EVERYONE on mich. ave. im pretty sure my weird stare scared him away and he dodged us. ahaha no we just lost him. i can officially say that john fuckin mayer ran away from me. sigh. alex is still pissed, and she just told me that howie day was playing for free in the virgin megastore when we were there, but we missed that as well....but we think thats where john was coming from. he has a concert downtown tonight with howie at the chicago theater, so we know he was downtown!...oh man.why didnt i stop him? oh right, u were tooo busy staring at him. good job dumbass. oh well i will go home tomorrow a happy girl.

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: john mayer

my school is amazing. they thought it would be nice for the students to get a day off ("study day") in the middle of finals week. well who's really gonna study? so alex sampy and i took advantage of this oppertunity, and tried to finish off all the alcohol that we had left over before we go home. the night began at 7pm and ended somewhere around 3am. i have an official drinking glass. its from the lake shore dining (LSD) cafeteria. i stole it bc their food sucks. so i enjoyed many beverages from my LSD glass. wow the morning after is so bittersweet. i love listening to stories from the night before, but sometimes.....i am ashamed.

well its actually time to study....and shop...i love chicago

Current Mood: content
Current Music: man of constant sorrow - o brother where art thou

Charlotte York Goldenblatt

You want to be perfect. The perfect wife, the
perfect mother, have the perfect house and
perfect life. There is nothing wrong with
perfection, but be wary when you dont always
get your way. You are loyal, persistent,
optimistic and kind. There is nothing in this
world that you feel love couldnt solve. You
have your hopes and dreams, but family is
exceptionally important to you.





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throughout the entire day i have been bombarded by "love". no, not in the good way, but in the making-meag-feel-lonely way. it all began in sociology and the new topic is .....love and marriage. then i had a lovely chat with em about me being one of her bridesmaids bc she hopes to marry jermey...dont get me wrong, i am happy for her. then, i watch when harry met sally for like 6 hrs bc i have to keep stopppimng and apply the dialogue to these damn theorists for my commun. class for my 8 pager. i want love like that. love u have with a best friend. then i always see everyone in the halls on the phone with their boyfriends/girlfriends hearing the "i love yous". its all cute but not when ur hormonal. then its not so cute. and now my icon for thsi damn journal. its affectionate....i miss that. i am just lonely. and so far the available straight guys are apparently available for a reason. they arent date-able. at least for me. i guess im picky...? nope. all the sweet ones, the ones that remind me of home, they are the ones with their cells glued to their hands at night. oh well. mr. right is lookin for me. i will find him when im not lookin for him, right?

so heres my exciting month:
nov 20th~ kaities coming
nov 24th-28th~ thanksgiving
nov 27th~ kaities bday!
dec 5th-7th~ em is coming

im excited! i miss my girlies. sigh.

ok well im gonna stop talking before i sound really depressing. good nighty.

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: sunshine~ g. love

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Current Mood: amused
Current Music: little things

i just finished watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind again. god i love that movie. obviously. "sand is overrated. it's just tiny little rocks". or "hard to spend that much time with someone to find out theyre a stranger". hmmm i love it.

as for my title of the entry, i dont know how the hell that song got into my head. but i love office space as well.

so i didnt go to the greenday concert tonight. im pretty sure that that was a good choice, otherwise i wouldve been raped. not a good situation. and hey, i saved $35! thats always good.

so being a girl for that few days a month sucks and had made me uber-bitchy today. i apologize tot hsoe who felt my wrath. i probably didnt mean it. i just couldnt take peoples shit. i still cant. however movies+chocolate = happy meag. i am happier than before. i also found this terrific website for all u anti bush friends. http://chrisevans3d.com/files/iq.htm basically it shows the IQ's of kerry voters vs. bush voters. interesting data. check it out.

i have 2 packages waiting for me in the mail room. i = excited! they are either any my cds (g. love, slightly stoopid, tristan prettyman) or season 8 of friends on dvd! omg! i know! another 4 discs of friends! i cant believe it!

ok i need sleep. i am tired. i cant wait to climb up my damn bunk and sleep in the bed that is more ocmfortable than my own in crystal lake. yea. goodnight

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: heavier things / damn it feels good to be a gangsta

hello. i am tired. i took my first trip to the library today...i needed quiet and i needed to focus. basically since i was in a building on lake michigan i just stared out at the lake. it was peaceful. did a lil studying for the sociology exam tomorrow....i hope i did enough.

floor 4 vs. floor 3 football again today. we kicked ass. and the cold kicked my ass. i am still shivering.

so here my dreammmmm schedule for next semester, or the classes i want at least, but im int he last group to sign up so who knows what will happen:
~film genre: horror and sci fi (i have this professor currently and he is fuckin kick ass. he lets me call him jeff and all he does is make fun of my school and hollywood. its hilarious. i love him)
~Photography
~english (dont wanna take it, but thanks to rate my professor.com i have found one i can like)
~college algebra (yes, i took ap calc, yes i aced it both semesters, NO i didnt get ap credit, bc my damn school doenst tak 3's, so i have to take one semester of math...hence college algebra)
~psychology (it counts as a science core requirement! yea! no bio! no chem! yea! and the guy i want is father sierra, yea thats right, FATHER sierra. haha apparently he is hilarious, no homework/readings//exams/quizzes, just 10 pages of definitions due at the end of the semester that he doesnt even really read. yea! )
~sociology(mass media and popular culture, fun!)
and thats that. sounds spectacualr!

ok, well i need to go nourish myself. oh help me decide if ui should go to greenday tomorrow...i dont like the kid im going with and i dont know who else is going,....help!

ok bye

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: shins